Ok, i'm 15 years old and i've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. i was on zyprexa which put me to sleep at night and now my doctor switched me to remeron[a depression medicine]. I think im in a mixed episode. I feel depressed and tired, and unmotivated all the time but i can go to sleep for 1 or 2 hours and be fine. i went to sleep last night at 10 woke up at 2 am and was wide awake. i get really paranoid when im home alone. ill be on the computer with the door to the room cracked and i always look over my shoulder at the door i see things move out of the corner of my eye i feel as if someone is right next to me looking over my shoulder. my feel get really cold and i get chills up my back and neck and arms. sometimes i think i see the door moving or the curtains moving. when im with people i always think that they dont like me or when they laugh i think theire laughing at me. I sometimes feel like crying because i cant take feeling so paranoid i just want to escape. its a feeling i cant take like inside my gut like something is terribly wrong. ive had hypnogogic hallucinations when i was younger about seeing spirits in my room when i was in bed. only 2 that i can remember. someone please help. any advice?
Update:im also scared to play my music too loud becuase i feel as if thats when im the most vulnerable like ill hear something in the other room and turn my music down. just a couple minutes ago i was fine playing online games listening to my music loud then i got really paranoid and shut my music completely off so i could hear everything to make sure i was safe
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Hi,
One thin in your ball park is the fact that you can clearly describe what you are experiencing. I am going to suggest that you visit with your doctor and discuss this with him. You may need to have an additional medication or have your current medications changed.
If you are seeing things move out of the corner of your eye, or the door and curtains moving and you know that there is nothing there this indicates that you are still experiencing visual hallucinations.
What you are experiencing can be frustrating and feeling like you want to escape is very normal. The fact that you are asking for help tells me that you have a lot to live for and most importantly want to enjoy the life you have. Though frustrating, what you are experiencing can be corrected with the proper medication. Hang in there. This is only a temporary thing!
Good luck to you.
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Its the damn pills they put you on. Quit taking them and the episodes will stop. (The same thing happened to my wife, so I speak from experience!)
Here is what I suggest for you as well as I, that rather than avoiding these feelings, to let ourselves experience them, intensely..... and in my experience, this is transcendental.
You're not paranoid. Moot is watching you. He likes the little girls, you know.
seems like you are having episodes of psychosis... please go and see your Dr they will be able to help you adjust medication etc. please don't feel ashamed or embarrassed. it doesn't mean you are mad or will be locked up either! you need to see your dr.