Hi I've always considered myself a little too emotional for a guy. Sometimes I like to fantasize about the "perfect girl", "Ms. Right", etc. The thing is, when I catch myself dreaming about this, I realize how I'm making myself dependent on the concept of being loved by a girl. I feel like putting all my hopes into finding the right person makes me weak. I also just started college, and I haven't yet found that group of friends that I "click" with, the way I did in high school. So sometimes, I feel lonely. But when I feel lonely, I do the same thing...I tell myself I'm weak and just kind of...force myself to stop being lonely. Is this bad? I do similar things physically, like occasionally taking freezing showers in the wintertime and willing myself not to shiver, sometimes dousing my food with chili peppers/wasabi, etc. Does anyone else "test" their will like this?
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Emotional regulation is a normal process. You are showing two different types - reappraisal (which you do with your on loneliness, making justifications for it on the basis of your own traits which you feel you can control) and suppression (which you do to "test your will"). I see nothing abnormal about this, although you do not seem like a happy/content person.
It sounds like you might be bored. Try joining a club at school maybe even volunteer. You will keep yourself busy and then meet people and maybe that special girl. Good luck!