i'm female, 21. I did ecstasy with my best guy friend.
The first time i tried mdma, it was bliss. I was so confident and outgoing and happy :D
The second time i tried it, exactly the opposite happened to me. During the entire trip i had ZERO self esteem, was paranoid and depressed. WHy did this happen??!
Some factors to consider
-We sniffed md+2% coke and also drank vodka
-I've had like 6 hours of sleep in two days (lack of sleep basically)
-He told me about this incident JUST before we sniffed: Apparently i walked out in a bra and jeans the frst time we sniffed, and his neighbors were laughin at me (because i am so flat-chested) and he felt bad for me. THAT HURT DEEP, i dont even know why
-My mom had called previously and told me not to do wrong things and that she is trusting that i wont.
Could any of the above have been the reason i went into the bad trip? Why did my self esteem disappear??
Answers & Comments
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Was the second time you took it close to the first? If so the second time would have had a much smaller effect.
MDMA is a seratonin re uptake inhibitor, it stops you taking up seratonin after its released as you normaly would so you end up with increased seratonin kicking about in your synapses. That means you have less seratonin kicking about than normal for the next few days so taking it again has a much smaller effect, as there is less seratonin to release in the first place.
Alcahol works in an opposite way to MD so decreases its effect. Lack of sleep doesn't help and being in a bad mood doesn't help. So you've more a less answered your own question. You may well have also had a worse batch of MDMA then before as the quality varies a lot. The coke won't have made much difference.
MDMA is best enjoyed on rare occasions when on nothing else.
You're an idiot. Mixing drugs, enjoy your looks cause from the sound of it they won't last much longer.