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When you are depressed, you'll feel as though life has no meaning anymore. As though it's not worth to continue living. And you will feel tired of everything. Like if something had always made you feel happy, when you're depressed, that particular thing does not make you feel the least excited anymore.

You'll feel as though you're useless, stupid and all negative adjectives you can think of.

For eg when I failed something I'm really passionate about. I'll just sit alone and write down rude comments about how stupid I am and how I don't deserve to live my life. And when you're depressed you don't like to talk. You'd rather just sit there in silence, being clouded in your thoughts. You would feel very stressed and sad and tired. And sometimes you'll even weep.

When you are depressed you feel like no-one can help you. That there is no way out. You feel like everyone hates you and you are a burden to everyone. You don’t want to let anyone help you because they don’t know what you’re going through. You try not to let anyone see that you’re depressed so you put on a fake smile for everyone and sometimes it makes it worse. You don’t want anyone to find out about your depression but at the same time you do because you just want to feel loved by someone. But then nobody seems to notice and you get worse. At first you are just upset all the time. Then you start to cry every night when everyone is asleep and no-one can hear you. Then you start to cut yourself and it hurts. It hurts a lot. But it’s nothing compared to your emotional pain so you keep doing it. Eventually it starts to feel good and you depend on it. You get addicted. You cut when you feel sad, you cut when you get angry, you cut all the time. You start to isolate yourself from everyone. Still, nobody notices and it makes you feel even worse. You stop going to school/work. You always sit in your bedroom and sometimes you just cry. But nothing helps. You feel alone. It gets to the point where you can’t take it anymore and you feel like nobody wants you here. You think it’s better to just kill yourself, that nobody would miss you. Some people overdose, some cut a little bit too deep and some hang themselves. Some people survive. When they wake up all they can think is “I’m still alive. I don’t want to be alive.” But then all their family and friends come to see them and for once you actually feel loved. Then you start to think “Maybe it’s a good thing that I didn’t succeed.” But then you relapse and that same feeling comes back all over again. This time people notice. They try to help but you don’t want any. But then you realise that maybe if you let people help you that this horrible feeling will go away. So you get help and you get better slowly. You can’t get better immediately, it’s impossible. These things take time. But you are getting better. You aren’t isolating yourself as much anymore. You stop cutting after a while. You stop isolating yourself completely. You start smiling a lot more. You start to feel happy. You feel loved. You realise that people do love you. That making a permanent decision for temporary pain wasn’t the right answer. You can get out of that dark place. It just takes time and you have to be willing. Accept the help people offer. Don’t ever think that people don’t love you because they do. Your family and friends do. It’s just your mind making up things to torture you. To tell you that you aren’t wanted. Don’t listen to your mind. Listen to the people you love. They can help you.