You are a sissy cross dresser. That is what I have been all my life. You dress in anything feminine, lingerie and dresses. You want to look so much like a girl and when you accomplish this, It gives you a hard on and so much of a rush you have to mas..tur..bate in your clothes.

And the more you get humiliated, the more you want to mas--tur--bate.

I have been a sissy girl since I was 10 yrs old and today I'm over 50 and still love being humiliated in front of people. The more they laugh at me the more sissified I want to act. And I just love showing off in my sissy clothe while getting off in front of everyone.

You need to hang on to that girlfriend, there is not too many girls that will put up with sissy like us.

From your description it appears that it is only a fetish and a fantasy as of now. Since you are only imagining doing this and not actually cross-dressing it is just a fetish and sexual desire that you have.

It sounds like you have a fetish known as sissification, which means you like to be made into a sissy. There's nothing wrong with it, and the only way it would be a "problem" is if it had negative effects on your relationship. Maybe your girlfriend just doesn't understand how you feel. Talk to her about it and explain it to her. If she still has an issue with it, your choices would be to not do it and just suffer, talk to a mental health professional to see about adjusting how you feel about it, or maybe you should consider whether you can be happy in a relationship with someone who doesn't understand you.

It's a fetish, not one I can relate to but apprently not all that unusual. It's only a problem if your girlfriend doesn't want to play along.

lol

im-masculinization/humiliation/cross-dressing

basically, you want her (or more?) to make you their b*tch, dress you up, do your makeup...

it's fine, she should have fun with it but some people might be freaked out...?