she was ok, she changed, she showed interest at start for 5 dates...she didnt want sex i didnt rush it.

i have feeling for her. respected her, valued her, stood for her protected her when i had a chance.

there a lack of communication from her side, which i tried with patience to make her open up to me...

we kissed, flirted..things that a couple does...she rejected me the 1st time by saying she wants to be alone, i gave her her space, talked to her normal...till she called me yesterday that she misses me and sh*t...i was nice with her, went over to her, we hugged and kissed, and i asked her one more time, what am i to her, or what does consider us as, she said that she only wants me a friend...

having feelings for someone, and then u knew or sensed that this someone has feelings for you, were u did everything that a couple does, but u r not officially going out, and then you are rejected twice...the 2nd time was minutes after you kissed...

i guess it is a bit not easy to decide if you want to be friends?

i miss her? yes i do...i'm angry how she behaved lately with me? yes i am...but it was kept cool..

gave her her space when i felt she needed it, and when i she called and showed me that interest, i decided not to "ignore" her, and then this happened again...

it is rather difficult for me to decide upon stopping all kinds of contact with her, or just be friends with her, it is quite difficult to be friends with someone whom u had intense feelings for...

or just f$%k it...coz frankly i was disappointed with her flip...or her games if i can put it this way...

the 2nd contact when i saw her, it was only to give her the benefit of the doubt...but it ended up to be that i went to her to be rejected again! something that made regret the moment i decided to contact her again, after she started it...