im 17 and my dads not been around for about a decade. with guys in their late 20s to 40s whom i know/are above me, im always very prone to getting ridiculously fond of, with varying degrees of sexual feelings...basically, just want to know them better, be loved/liked by them. im notably quite bad at sustaining a relationship with guys my own age, i always seem to muck it up. anyway, thats all a bit weird, sorry, what do you think?