"My First"

My mind was saying no but my body was telling a different story

I knew if i let my guards now he'll hurt me

He said he loved me so why couldn't we wait

I knew if i give in i wouldnt talk to him after that day

I wanted my first to be something that i wanted and something he pressured me to do

Cause either way i turn i'm still going to lost

So he took it without permission after i specifically said no

Time and time i begged him to let me go

I cryed and i pleaded but he stop

He looked me dead in the eye when he was done and that's when my heart dropped

I'm sorry is what he kept on saying as he walked away

Leaving me there to soon return to my fate

He was HIV positive is a thought that slipped my mind

And full-blown AIDS has erupted inside

Now i'm dying slowly because of my first time

i'm 15 also...

i'm 15 also... and everything u see from me i wrote myself...i write poems about what real people go through