hi everyone. im a 14 year old girl and i guess you can call me a late bloomer. whatever. anyways, i've been able to avoid it pretty much throughout 6-7th grade, but im in 9th grade now and its just awful. im only 97 pounds and 5 feet tall (supposed to reach a final height of around 5'3...). i have size 32a boobs and am skinny (runs in my genes). i wear a size 24 in jeans, and xs in everything else. i hate the way i am. everyone is either bigger as in taller or curvier than me. i cant seem to be happy...im turning 15 in june and i dont want to be stuck looking the same way. im sick of it. i cry so much over it. my mom and my grandma talk all the time about how my 16 year old brother is nearly as tall as my dad and im still 3 and a half inches shorter than my mom, and how i dont look any different than i did 6 months ago and how i seem to be 'so behind' compared to all my friends. its frustrating.she tells my family members i still dont have my period, which is also just embarrasing. having your dad call you a late bloomer and telling you to 'face the facts' is one of the worst things to hear. i just want to be happy. i hate crying every night over the way i ******* look. guys dont like me because im too small and my body looks like it isnt fully developed...they dont even care to look at my personality. i cut myself once last year because i was so unhappy with everything (and over friend issues and other things) and i dont want to get into those positions again. im not depressed but i get so upset over this....why cant i just have something like everyone else? why me? please help me figure out ways to fix this, or at least for me to be happy. i hate my parents for telling everyone my problems. im waiting for the day when im almost as tall as my mom. when i have b size boobs. when i have my period and i can complain about it with my friends (dont you dare say trust me you dont want it or something. im tired of hearing that.). when people wont refer to me as that adorable small girl anymore. i hate this. i hate this. i hate it so much. please help me feel better about myself. i cant take it anymore. i cant stand it. ): ): ): ):
please dont just say "relax and dont think about it..." or something because trust me, its not that simple. i dont work that way, and i dont think anyone else does. i dont want to hate my life.
Answers & Comments
Think about what you have. Did you eat today? Do you have a home? Then be happy. If you really haven't developed, it may be medical, you may want to Talk to a doctor. However, you will develop. You will. You might not be super huge boobs, or super curvy, but you'll get there. Not tomorrow, but it'll take time. Trust me, I don't have any boobs either. I wish I had huge boobs, but I'm fine because I know god has blessed me by giving me an opportunity to go to school and eat everyday. I sponsor a girl in Tanzania through world vision. She doesn't eat everyday. So think about what you have ALREADY, and be thankful. Things will get better. Don't worry.
Talk to your parents about how you feel and tell them to stop telling everyone about it. In the meantime, there is nothing you can do about your body, it's who you are, and you can't change it. The only thing you can do is just accept it. Most teenage girls feel insecure about their bodies, a lot of curvy girls wish they could be as skinny as you. Everyone is different, and you have to accept that.